
“I was taken to a large room filled with other women and told to undress and lay back on the bed. When I asked for the doctor, I was told he would be along in a minute. I was given a drug that completely numbed my body. It felt like I was bound and locked in a dark room. I don’t remember the pain of the abortion as well as I recall the sounds. Now I know what I heard was the sound of the suction machine as they tore my baby to pieces inside of me. Lying on the bed paralyzed and unable to move, I thought I heard my baby scream. This is when the mother in me woke up. This is the moment I knew this was a baby—my baby. I remember screaming for them to ‘STOP!!’
To this day, I don’t know if they heard me or if it was all in my mind. Too late, I learned what an abortion really is.”

Mayela Banks: photo used with permission.
“Healing from my abortion trauma began when I was confronted with the truth. I had to face the truth before I could grieve my loss. And I had to grieve my loss before I could speak the truth,” Mayela said.Marnie Bello found herself scared of judgment after getting pregnant soon after getting married and starting a career. The former valedictorian decided to go to an abortion clinic for the abortion pill.
“Without any information on fetal development or the life inside of me, the counselor assured me it’s normal for women to take the abortion pill. She eased my worry with the promise of my two desires—I would feel better and be able to move on with my life.”Marnie took the first pill at the clinic, and then went home.
“I paid the $400, took my first pill, and walked out, like the rest of the women with their brown paper bags. The next night I swallowed the second round of pills. A couple of hours later I was in my apartment gripping my stomach in agony. Huge blood clots, cramps, and excruciating pain overtook me as I spent the rest of the night in the bathroom bleeding and crying on the floor and hunched over the toilet. At one point I passed what I thought to be my baby and I wailed out in both fear and pain. No one told me how intense the pain and bleeding would be.”

Marnie Bello: photo used with permission.
“The devastation and darkness of abortion stole my baby’s life, my life, my joy, the health of our marriage and my mind, and a sibling from my children. The unspoken consequences of abortion are far greater than I ever could have imagined. As a post-abortive woman, I know Jesus offers healing and the hope of meeting my child in heaven. As a woman who [has] faced unwanted pregnancies, the lies and aftermath of abortion were far darker than the temporary fears of my unknown pregnancy. Abortion hurt me.”